The Meaning of Life

Published January 8, 2012 by Sevgi D.S.

There used to be a very intelligent, sensitive and kind horse at the riding school that I was having riding lessons. No, not all horses are intelligent and sensitive and most of them are very un-kind especially if they are horses of a riding school. They are faced with very hard conditions, too much work, too little freedom and unhealthy living conditions. This makes them either a nasty horse with habits like kicking or trying to throw people over, or makes them a horse ‘shutdown’, doing everything that they are asked to do but with their minds and spirits far far away. Read the rest of this entry →


You don’t change horses in the middle of the race

Published January 3, 2012 by Sevgi D.S.

Flowers“Forgive me, honey” flowers that I received today.

My grandmother was only 6 years old when the empire collapsed and a new republic was founded. She grew up to be the ultimate republic child; her values were justice, hard work, honor and equal rights to all. But it was 1954 when she got married and equal rights did not quite apply there. As a law school graduate she worked for long hours only to come home to prepare dinner for 6 to 8 guests and go to bed with the house looking as pristine as before the event. And mind you, this was a time when there were no dishwashers, refrigerators, portable hairdryers. Even the nylon stockings were very hard to find. Things got even worse when a baby who did not have the chance to use disposable diapers was added to the picture. Read the rest of this entry →

Marriage & Friends

Published January 1, 2012 by Sevgi D.S.

I met this cute looking, sweet talking guy on the first week of university and dated him throughout it. And some more. It should have been over latest on the 4th year but no, I was insecure inside and he made me feel insecure on the outside so I went as far as getting engaged. Then I managed to get out of this relationship and found me a handsome, sexy co-worker for rebound. He was (not happily) married, it was to be over sooner or later but I must admit I really liked the way he treated me, as if I had ‘a fragile’ tag stuck on me. Read the rest of this entry →

Who wrote this play?

Published December 31, 2011 by Sevgi D.S.

Instagram Fairy

I had a dream. Horses, riding arena, round pen for coaching, rooms for seminars & trainings and a restaurant with a lounge all on a green land surrounded by forest. I had a friend who came and told me that I can realize this dream with him and his company funding. I started to look for land that was up for rent. Searched forĀ  2 months and could not find any. Then my friend came to say that they would be investing the money on something else that their company needed. So I made a new plan for the new year. And the plan did not include anything about that dream of mine. Read the rest of this entry →